Well, I’m volunteering at the Gaming Expo tomorrow and I’m a bit scared because of the guys (yes, plural) who like me. I have huge intimacy issues when it comes to men, even though I’m totally okay with and crave platonic love from people, serious non-platonic stuff scares me. XD I don’t know if it is because I was raised ultra-conservative or because fell in love hard once and that didn’t work out and dating is always fairly horrible so I’m scared off forever but… there you go.
What I should do is be straight and say I’m not interested in dating right now. But I tried that and it didn’t work. :(
So now I’m reading articles on the friend-zone in attempts to figure out how men’s brains work and I’m still no closer to figuring out what to do. Besides growing a couple of balls myself. I dunno.
D: I feel kind of dumb because I’m old and I should have this crap figured out by now. My roommate said I should avoid places like conventions where guys are and that’s not going to happen because I love hanging out with people like myself.
I end up hanging out around this one particular guy because he shows no interest in me whatsoever. Strangely enough his lack of interest makes me like him a little bit more than the interested folk. Which is messed up I know. -_-