I'm fairly sure work is trying to kill me again. I even have dreams of my coworker telling me to get out while I still can because my boss is trying to kill me. Today I went home nauseous and sick because I couldn't hack it. My trainee/future replacement was completely understanding. I adore her, and want her to do well and take over the job.
SO. BAD. PLEASE TAKE MY JOB.
It pisses me off that I'm forced to this. I made it a whole week and a half. The constant pressure to get the job done and train new girl at the same time is impossible to bare in the long run.
The doctor gave me a note saying that I should be on leave effective yesterday (stress leave) and while I'm not going to use it, it's highly tempting. It's an out a least, and if I continue to deteriorate I might have to use it. If I wait until they let me go I might be too worn out and tired to launch into job hunting right away and it might be a long struggle to get back on my feet again.
It's a real sucky situation to be in.
Anyway, I think Nano is off this year. I was fairly sure it was off before November even began but this kind of put a nail in the coffin. I write 30k a month anyway, on average, and 10-15k on my "off" months. I know how to write, I just need to finish. And right now with all the stress at work I just can't pull off Nano.
In happier news I went to the convention on Saturday dressed up as Vriska and loved every moment of it. Homestuck fans are awesome. I posted about it here: Anime Evolution - Homestuck photos
That is all.