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07:09pm 13/08/2012
Sorry about the rant in the previous lj entry. That was in no way aimed at my lj friends or in fact pretty much anyone I know personally. It's really sad how the Internet makes people act how they wouldn't in RL. Or maybe how they would in RL if there were no repercussions for being a dick.

Off that topic, I'm under an amazingly large amount of stress lately. There is a broken water something or other outside of the house where I rent... which is a basement suite. Not unexpectedly, there is a lot of mold that developed... somewhere, I believe most of it is in the carpet.

So I wrote a letter to my landlord, then, when she didn't reply, went rental hunting (finding a place to live in Vancouver for anything remotely resembling a reasonable price is nigh impossible.) Anyway, landlord was called for a reference, so she finally shows up at the house on Saturday to look into replacing the broken water whatever, and put down laminate to replace the carpet. Since we didn't get the place, we might have to go with what she offers. Unfortunately because the leak is outside the house and underground, it'll take a week for someone to come fix it. So frustrating.

I've been sleeping in the livingroom for a week now as the bedroom smells so bad I can't sleep in there. I've generally been stressed out about the lack of privacy, even though I made makeshift walls around the bed. I have a roommate and the livingroom = kitchen and bathroom, so I won't have privacy back until the bedroom is livable again.

To make matters worse, things smell of mold now, and I have a lot of things. Luckily most of the comic books were in boarded plastic so I think those are savable, but my old artwork from University is probably a write off.

Going through my old artwork (and a book on setting goals I found) made me sad and wonder, yet again, where the heck I'm going with my life. I wrote in the goal book (over 4 years ago) that I wanted to do something with my writing and art. Well, I've done exactly none of that... now I use writing as an escape from a monotonous job where the thing I get reprimanded for the most is my lack of (business) writing skills. I go to a psych who is wanting me to go into teaching, which I agree is the most logical choice for me, but I find teaching overwhelming and stressful. So I feel like I'm drifting in limbo, and it sucks. :( The only thing that made me feel really ALIVE and a part of something during the last two years was acting. If I could get paid to throw myself in front of people and bask in the sheer terror and endorphins that come from said sheer terror my life would be set...


Hopefully everyone else's life is going better than mine right now. XD And I'm sure I don't have a lot to complain about, I have a place to sleep at very least, and letting go of some of my stuff isn't necessarily a bad thing.

I will figure my crap out soon. *shakes fist*
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08:51am 14/08/2012 (UTC)
Katherine: Wackiness
If it's any consolation, we Americans can take the hate (and are also largely responsible for dishing on our own countrymen). XP

Edited at 2012-08-14 08:51 am (UTC)
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07:23pm 14/08/2012 (UTC)
Raina: Care Bear Stare!
Going through my old artwork (and a book on setting goals I found) made me sad and wonder, yet again, where the heck I'm going with my life.

^And that is why I've thrown shit out over the years and don't think of it again. I don't need reminders of coulda woulda shoulda. Life changes and things don't work out the way you want them too, no need to have that evidence around. It's not healthy.

I'm currently jobless again, but I've actually got a plan this time. I didn't like working for the cleaning company but I liked what I did, so I intend to set myself up doing that on my own terms and being my own boss. Since I live in the DC Metro area, with LOTS of rich people, so it's a realistic going-into-business-for-myself plan. I'm trained to clean homes so I know how to clean a house and have had six months doing it. And until that takes off, I plan on finding a job to tide me over until I get it going. I have two interviews coming up this month, one for a new store, and one is for a library position. I hope I get one of them! Going back to college at the end of this month too and I'm all paid up as far as that is concerned. Money isn't a problem right now so long as I spend it on the right things. Oh and writing is going rather well too. Still single but I couldn't care less about that because I realize when I'm happy and I have things to do, I'm not lonely. :)

I hope your life improves soon and I think it will. I've known you long enough to be confident you'll find your way. :)

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05:23am 23/08/2012 (UTC)
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Thanks Raina! And good luck with the interviews and the writing! :D It sounds like you are doing well :) The business idea sounds like a good one. *nods*
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05:28am 23/08/2012 (UTC)
M: worried rev
*hugs Lies_d* I wish you lived here too, that'd be awesome. :D They finally fixed the leak on Tuesday, so at least there is that... -_-
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04:55am 15/08/2012 (UTC)
I sympathize. I feel like my life is in limbo. I'm trying to get somewhere though!

The mold problem sucks.

Also feeling the lack of affordable accommodations problem. Keegan and I have kinda split. I'm trying to find a place for my cat and myself, but... There's very little I can afford, and very little available. Ugh.
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05:25am 23/08/2012 (UTC)
Yeah... live in limbo = suck. Would you be able to get in with a roommate situation? I'm sorry to hear about the break up. :( Sucky.
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