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02:31pm 08/03/2012
 
 
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I was in the washroom just now and an old song I used to listen to called "Winds of Change" by Scorpions came on the radio. It took me back to me taking the C-Train home from work (in Calgary) a couple days or weeks after 9/11... and the memory was so vivid that I briefly thought maybe it'd be nice to be back there, 20 yrs old again... incidentally to a moment in time where I was thinking it'd be nice to go back (before September 11th...) (So it was a double time memory!!! :D )

And this *overwhelming* sense of being trapped came over me. It happens every time I think about going back and changing the past and living any part of my life over. I never EVER want to go back... the thought of having to redo and repeat life is just soooo draining. If I redid life at that time I'd have changed my entire future because the thought of, say, doing University again is bloody tedious. I'd never meet most of my friends. I'd never have that sense of security and kinsman ship. I'd never have gotten drunk for the first time... but I might have just drowned myself in the river just from sheer desperation of getting out of having to repeat what I've already done.

I'd have to listen to "In the End" by Linkin Park on the radio on constant repeat for that entire summer it was a huge hit. URGH.

So my question is, do you find the thought of repeating any part of life something that gives you a sense of repulsion?
 
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 bunnynumber13
 
11:21pm 08/03/2012 (UTC)
 
 
Raina: Sasuke Bad Boy
I find the thought pointless. Whenever I go doing the 'what if' thing, I immediately tell this to me myself: Well you couldn't have known the future and that's why the past is the way it is, because if you could change things, ergo, there wouldn't be anything to change if you knew then what you know now! I don't want to repeat anything, it would imply I thought I could do better and while I'm not proud of everything I've done, I'd sooner experience the future. It's the not knowing what comes next that's the fun part.
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 girlguitarist
 
02:57am 09/03/2012 (UTC)
 
 
after this there's just the circus
Not so much specifically reliving something, but the thought of going to university again antagonizes me. I love learning new things but I just can't go through that ever again!!

On the contrary, I do sort wish I could redo certain parts with my current personality. Then I really wouldn't give a crap about high school haha :) Although, if given the choice right now to relive high school I definitely wouldn't...
 
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 ravenshaelo
 
04:28am 10/03/2012 (UTC)
 
 
Tamara
While the thought does not fill me with revulsion, I can't help but dislike myself sometimes for some of the choices I've made. But that being said, what is done cannot be undone (or redone!), and I'll live with it.
 
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